Disappointment

I know this was ment for us to use this as a forum to keep everyone updated about our daily doings, but I needed to get something off my chest. Disappointment is a strong word and I am sure lots of people feel it everyday. Over the past year I have been able to witness some of the greatest things in my life. I would not trade them for the world. Today, I am disappointed. Disappointed in myself, for not telling people how I feel. Disappointed in my family, for not seeing how devoted to them I am. Disappointed in myself for letting people take advantage of me and my generosity. Today, I came to the realization that no matter how much I try, some people don't care about anyone but themselves. Devoting my life to a job that only ended up just being a paycheck was a real disappointment. I think I convinced myself that something better would have come from it. It was just a job and not my life. Life is more then a job. For so long I let it define who I was as a person. Everybody always asked and still ask, how "the shop" is doing, and for the first time I cannot answer that question. I think, when the job ended, I was sad and relived in the same moment. That time in my life is over. Trying everyday to help anyway possible and to no evale. I was the last one locking the door, only to see that there were still cars out front and the thought, do I leave it or do I reopen everything and put the cars away and be an hour late getting home. I always chose to put the cars away knowing nobody would even notice. My job didn't end at 5:30pm. To everyone else it is just a job and there is another one around the corner. I guess I thought too hard and hoped that working as hard as I did people would notice, but in the end all I ended up being was the bosses kid who was taking advantage of his parents. Don't let your job define you, jobs are a tightrope and they can snap at any moment. Be happy with your life first and then find something that you enjoy. Best wishes Charlie.